Monday, June 30, 2008

Control??

This past week, I have been going back and forth with God over my relinquishing control to Him. As I said in my previous post, I have a tendency to give something to God and then take it back. I am a good planner, organizer, etc. and sometimes think I can take care of things better than God. Obviously I know this is not true; however, convincing my humanness of this is the hard part.
Last night, I told God that I was frustrated. I mean, He already knows it, why not verbally tell Him? When I pray for direction not only do I want the answer now, but I want the answer that I want now. So, there is this constant battle within my spirit where I am trying to trust God and wait on His timing. The church sign down the road from our house says, “God is never in a hurry and is never late.” As we have passed it several times this past week or so, I have to take it as a reminder that God’s timing is best. He is answering my prayers, but the answer may just be “wait” for now.
As I continue on this journey, I will continue to work on allowing God to control my life and not trying to figure out what I can do to help Him. As things come up that I cannot fix, that I cannot control, then I need to give them to the ONE who can fix them; to the ONE who is in control. He can take care of everything, He can do the impossible. He is a miracle working God and a protecting God. He is Jehovah Jirah –my provider. He will provide for my needs and for the needs of those around me. In the meantime, I need to focus only on my relationship and communion with Him. And, as He puts people in my path, I need to reach out to them – something else He has been convicting me of. More on that later…

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Abiding in Christ

I have been reading in the book of John lately during my time with God. I have also been reading “My Utmost for His Highest” by Oswald Chambers every morning at work. It is amazing, but shouldn’t be surprising, to me how God can use both of these to speak to the issues I am facing. Do you know the feeling when it is like God is hitting you on the head with the brick that you prayed for; it just isn’t the red brick that you wanted? You prefer a more burgundy brick…

Well, that is how I have felt this past week. Keith and I have been praying for direction in several areas of our lives, and we have been asking God for clear direction. Well, I myself expected God to give me clear direction – instead He has given me something else. Through my reading this week, it seems that God is revealing to me that when I ask for clear direction and pray for that I need to ‘let it go’. Well, go figure! I am probably the only one who prays about something and then tries to figure it out on my own, right?

God has really nudged me with this thought over the past few days. I can pray for direction, I can ask Him to clarify His will for me, but then I need to let it go and let Him work. He doesn’t need my help in figuring out His will for my life. This is where the leaning on Him comes in. This is tough to do, but what He is asking me to do is to come to Him and abide in Him, no matter my circumstances. I am going to work on this, and I am going to use the encouragement I got today from my Oswald Chambers reading.
Think of the things that take you out of the position of abiding in Christ. You say, "Yes, Lord, just a minute— I still have this to do. Yes, I will abide as soon as this is finished, or as soon as this week is over. It will be all right, Lord. I will abide then." Get moving— begin to abide now. In the initial stages it will be a continual effort to abide, but as you continue, it will become so much a part of your life that you will abide in Him without any conscious effort. Make the determination to abide in Jesus wherever you are now or wherever you may be placed in the future.
How awesome to think that one day I will abide in Christ without any conscious effort! Thank you, Lord, for speaking to me. Help me to learn to lean, help me to abide in you!!
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http://www.rbc.org/utmost/index.php

Monday, June 9, 2008

Enjoying the Journey??

So, why use the phrase "enjoying the journey"? "Enjoy the Journey" is a statement that my husband has used for quite some time now. It is a reminder to us that even when things are not necessarily going the way we think they should, we are still on a journey that is growing us closer to the Lord and closer to one another.
Life is one big journey, and some days are easier than others to "enjoy" that journey. However, when you think of it in a spiritual context, it brings things into perspective. When I accepted Jesus as my Savior, there wasn't a magic wand that declared my life to be easy from that day forward. But, there was the Holy Spirit that came into my life (John 14) to guide and direct my journey. When things are not what I wish they were, when there are decisions to be made, bridges to cross, a path to be chosen, etc., there is someone there to help me; someone who will never leave me or forsake me. That is encouraging.
As Keith and I continue to seek God's will for our lives, it is freeing to know that God has a plan, He knows the path on this journey, and He just wants us to learn to lean on Him and trust...This is easier said than done, but I am willing to go for it!! I want to trust God's plan and desire for my life, and I want to follow Him. I want to strive to enjoy this journey even when I have to relinquish control (which is not in my nature)and trust Him to lay out the path before me.
So, here is to learning to lean and enjoying the journey!!

Friday, June 6, 2008

Hello Blog World

Well, here I go...entering the blogosphere after much encouragement from my cousin and others. I cannot promise that what I write will have much to offer or if I will be the best at posting weekly, much less daily, but I want to give this a try. I hope that I can use this blog to encourage and build up others. I want to share my life, my thoughts, and my anxieties in the hopes that it might help someone else. I will set out with that as my goal. For now I will sign off, but I look forward to this new venture!