Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Overcome

I am so overcome with emotion right now as I continue to follow the blogs of what would be complete strangers except for the fact that being a part of the body of Christ has brought us together. I have prayed countless prayers for a family who has been separated from one another as the mom has been away from her husband and other children while she stayed at the hospital by the side of their youngest son not knowing at times if he would survive (www.mycharmingkids.net), for families going through cancer treatments and remission (PRAISE the LORD), and for a mother who has allowed me a glimpse inside her journey with grief and faith after birthing her little girl one year ago knowing that she would not live outside the womb.
Following these stories and hearing their words, I have been moved to laughter, awe, and tears. Their faith is tremendous and their vulnerability just as so. Today as I read about Angie and her trip to India (www.audreycaroline.blogspot.com) and having known how hard of a trip this was for her to take on SO many levels; I was once again moved to tears. God has used the stories that I have been following to teach me. My faith is so small, my dreams matter, and the gifts he has given me should not go unused. I have my little pity party because my husband and I have so many decisions it seems on our plate right now, and then I read about a sweet family that is about to lose their little girl if God decides not to perform a miracle on this side of heaven (www.kayleighannefreeman.blogspot.com). Now that is a reality check, if there ever was one. Sure, I KNOW God cares about my needs, ever how small, but these “things” are so trivial in comparison. I see the faith of these people/families and I know that if they can go through what they are experiencing and still cling to Christ, then I can choose to not worry about the petty things of this world (Matthew 6:25-34) and instead get on my face before Him and get to know Him more.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Happy New Year

As I reflect on the past year, and look forward to the new, I am thankful that I can see how the Lord is working and continues to work in my life. His work is a continuous process, and though I don't always see it, He is constantly working on me. I am thankful for His patience and provision. I am especially grateful that I am not where I once was, and that He cares enough to work in my life.

Have a wonderful 2009 everyone. Let us all seek to know HIM better this year and allow HIM to work in and through us.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

GOD IS...

God is working in me. He has a plan, and He is in control. He is patient.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Update on me…what am I dealing with right now??? hhmm

It has been a while since my last real post. Not sure there is any real reason for it besides just not always knowing how to articulate what I am feeling or going through. In the past month, there have been different feelings; different seasons of life, I guess you could say.

About a month ago, I read The Shack. This book really touched my heart and has brought me in for a second read through. In an effort to not give details away to those who haven’t read it, I will just say that there are some lessons contained within that I can learn from. This book was probably the clincher to a culmination of events and circumstances that have occurred over the past 5 months, and it has served as an encouragement towards goals that have been set over the course.

Basically, as I said in an earlier post, I want to go deeper in my walk with the Lord. I want my relationship with God to ‘click’ (as I have described it to people) like my relationships with others ‘clicks’. Don’t ask me to explain what this means, because ‘click’ was the only word I could come up with my blog buddies… I guess it is just something that God and I will just have to understand together. But in the meantime, you can pray for me, as Keith does, and just use the word ‘click’ since God knows what I need. For now, I can offer this as further insight. I look at other people who seem so confident in Him and I want that. I know that I shouldn’t compare myself to others in that way since I really don’t know what is on the inside/what’s in their hearts, but I do sense a confidence about them regarding their relationship with Him. I hear them pray, “Come quickly Lord. How I want to be in your presence”. And, I think, “Give me more time Lord, I am not ready yet to be in your presence.” Does that make ANY sense at all? Basically, I have been asking God to reveal Himself to me; to show me that he loves me and cares about me, to give me that unwavering confidence in our relationship, and to get me to where He wants me to be.

So, that is where I am; what I am dealing with right now. Until later, MG

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Where am I?

Just to let you know, I am planning on posting again. I even have some ideas in my mind, so don't give up on me. Maybe I can get something together within the next week or so!

Monday, August 4, 2008

I'm "Divin' In"

God has been dealing with me lately regarding my relationship with Him. Through my devotions this past week or so, and through an incredible concert this past weekend, I realized that I am not as close to the Lord as I need to be. Let me explain…

As mentioned in a previous post, I read “My Utmost for His Highest”(MUFHH) almost every day. And, almost every day, the Lord uses it to encourage me or speak something else to my heart. Lately, I have been coming face to face with my own relationship with Jesus. As we are all aware, it is easy to get into a “rut” at times. In regards to my walk with the Lord, the “rut” sometimes looks like memorized prayers, reading for distance and not for depth, reading just to say that I read today, etc. I find myself being distracted and not spending quality time with Jesus, and I have been convicted about that in recent days through my readings in MUFHH.

Another conviction came to me loud and clear at an unbelievable concert Friday night. We were privileged to see Steven Curtis Chapman at the Biltmore House. For those who are not aware, Steven and his family have been through an unimaginable tragedy in the past 2 ½ months. Their little 5 year old daughter was tragically killed in May after being hit by a car in their driveway. Increasing the intensity of this tragedy was the fact that their precious son was driving the vehicle that accidently hit Maria. Many prayers have been lifted from my lips these past weeks on behalf of this family. So, to get to see Steven in one of his first concerts back on tour was a blessing. It was a night that I could not have even imagined, and I find it hard to even put into words. To see SCC on stage with such openness and vulnerability was an inspiration. To have a glimpse at his Faith in God was breathtaking.

As I listened to him share the deep struggle and the deep pain but the even deeper reassurance of Christ, my heart was pricked. My Faith was encouraged, and my desire to grow in my walk with Jesus was magnified. I realized that I need to go deeper with Christ. I need to be disciplined to spend more time with Him and to make that time quality time. Other things, even things that are good, need to take a back seat to my relationship with God. I want to know Him in a deeper way than ever before, to hear His voice, and to trust Him with everything. As I seek to do this, there will be distractions and temptations that will have to be overcome. But, I know that it will be worth it all.

I want others to see Jesus in me. I want God to use me and to continue to grow me as He reveals Himself through His Word. I want to fall in love with Him above all things.

Monday, July 21, 2008

Okay, Lord, I hear you...

As I have mentioned in previous posts, we have been praying about some decisions lately. One specific thing we were asking for direction on was whether or not to sell our house. This is a thought that has crossed our mind and that we have been praying about off and on for a while now, so when it came up again this time, the natural thing to do was to pray. And that we did.

As we prayed, I felt like we weren’t getting totally ‘clear’ direction, so we thought we would just make a decision based on logic and pursue that decision until God changed our direction. In the meantime, the desire to sell our house was growing and we were seeing some options of places to move. Hey, we even thought about buying a travel trailer and parking it down by the river… The idea of moving was becoming exciting and we just kept pursuing open doors. In an effort to take the next step, I phoned a realtor (that had been highly recommended) and set up a time to meet with him. It seemed that as soon as I made that phone call, the desire to sell the house started to drift away. Circumstances with some of our neighbors started leading me to think that perhaps we aren’t done here yet. Connections made in the days prior to our meeting led me to believe that God had another plan.

Right before the realtor arrived, I asked Keith if we should just call him and cancel. Not really thinking we should do that, we both decided to at least meet with him and see what he had to say. He indeed turned out to be the great guy that everyone had told us he was, and we even found that there might have been other reasons for our meeting besides the talk of selling our home. We were able to be up front and honest with him, and he encouraged us to just wait and pray. Now that is my kind of realtor!! Since our meeting, I feel like the desire to move has been decreasing and that God has given me more of a desire to stay until His work in our neighborhood is completed. I have to admit that when I first felt Him saying to wait before selling the house, I was a bit upset and did not understand why. As the days have gone on, I am becoming more comfortable with the idea and with the promise that HE WILL take care of us. He knows our financial needs, but He also knows the needs around us. He knows that we humanly have a desire to go on a vacation, but He also knows that we are willing to give up a vacation to be used to help someone else. He sees the big picture, and we will just trust Him.

Sorry for doubting at first, Lord. But, I am hearing you now!! Show us even more how to love our neighbors.